Turn Off Your Reactor

Dear diary,and Dear readers.my blog may appear a bit different today.As I have said before ,I am still optimizing my blog and I seem to get into more than I want to.However I don't throw in the towel that easy ,as a matter of fact ,I have been known to keep the towel and take it home .Next I want other bloggers to link-up with my blog.I was ask to link up with ,weused2bu,when I first began to blog.At the time,I didn't understand.i was focused on putting my blog together.Ho,and just for the record,there is a blog titled :my Odyssey,it's listed on dashboard;it was supposed to be deleted.So if you come across this empty blog,try to think kind thoughts about this grandma.(remember we learn from our misstakes,sometimes it takes awhile for me.) Ok,now on to :Turn Off Your Reactor.The title is also a reminder for myself to change this self defeating behavior.I know there are other reactors out there,and if your like me ,reacting gets in the way of my communication,it causes me to say things I don't mean or I needed to think before I respond to another person.This is differently something I am working on.I have improved alot.However, this week a conversation with my daughter brought out my reacting.I began to talk about my latest news and she too.We have had 2 birthdays this week,a son driving for first time ,to his first job.Not to mention all the other things.It started out to be a busy week and continued.We began to talk about a conflict within our group,and the words came faster as you would expect on a topic like this.As it became more intense,I reacted .I made a harsh judgment about a person out of anger and hurt.later that evening ,still playing the words over in my head,I went to my quiet place.I prayed for truth.I needed to call my daughter and let her know I was wrong by reacting as I had. Reacting to what someone says doesn't feel good.It gives a feeling of not being in control of your own behaviors.Reacting is a learned behavior that we can change.And with that change comes pride;we feel really good when we learn we don't have to react,that we can respond after we decide the response.I pray each day to become a more loving person,with a loving attitude.My goal in life is to be filled with jesus' love.So I continue to be aware of changing old behaviors.If you know someone that needs help with this behavior,maybe you could share some of my story.Thank you for reading. love,thisgrandma.