Letting You Know.

Hi everyone, this grandma here. today ,dear diary, I want to talk about my thoughts. I have not written a post in 2 weeks. I have really missed this writing . But I became disillusioned when I looked for readers , anyone even coming to my blog , and the information from Google said 0 , in all categories. I also felt sad , one reason is because I like my blog. (most of the time). I had stopped trying to get advertisers , and began my personal fundraiser . I have also written quite a bit about myself and the reasons I am asking for every ones support. I have read some of it again, and I know all my writings are different . But they all were written for the same reason, some ,I added information ,I think , maybe ,they were confusing . But I felt compelled to start the fundraiser . I believe it is a very worth wild fundraiser . I continue to write about my relationship with God and Jesus . I have witnessed so many miracles , I have been and still am , being shown so much about life, love , faith , changing thoughts ,or maybe , thought patterns. I have been shown when I had some of the old thinking , I mean , thoughts ,that had been in my life for who knows how long , thoughts , that a person isn't even aware of , until God begins to show you . A few weeks ago , someone close to me was having problems in their longtime romantic relationship . I had prayed for them , but then , one day , I heard it! , quietly , in the back of my mind , I was wanting them to break up . I shuttered, what I was thinking was mean . And some how I was thinking it would be good for me!, wow. .. . I have to stop here but there is more to say . I will keep writing , and one day readers will come. And someone will understand me and why I have a fundraiser.